To be Continued......

IT was fair to middling
but suddenly it all came to winding....
something opened ... and opened to no vain
but caused the stink and arousal of pain....
-the pain of the blame ...
-the sorrow of the shame...
the loss of a soul with broken dream
showed that life is always mean.....
i cried out loud with silent tears
burning with hate and a deep fear.....
dere was no lap not a shoulder
only me and a head banging boulder...
it was an everlasting mourn
as i was left as a forlorn...
the heavy soul i needed to cart
left by the body left by the heart.....
i wanted to forgive i wanted to forget
but no one ever did asked dat....
there was so much to say so much to hear
but not an understanding heart and a listening ear.....
i had the words but i wudnt say
as i had the fear of dismay ...
once i got the fire to say
and yea it showed me a lost way.....
it ended with that same tear
but in silence dat no one could hear.....
again that scream again that hate
for it was my unfortunate fate......
i took my time to stand back
and to come out of that rack.....
as i still had something for that persistence
and they were - 'reasons of my existence...'
they owned my life
they owned my smiles...
now i was weak even to frown
but for them i had my pains to drown.....
so i kissed 'not a last gudbye'
and 'made a start with no more cry'......
it was my home my own home
but still i was all alone.....
i had the sorrow but nevr showed
as i was sailing on a new boat.....
i had the smiles on my face
but inside i had a race ....
i acted like in a mime
as now i knew that life is a wine...

now in the end,
dont stop me to say
i am seeing a long way.....
it is a wait which is still on
and it will go on and ON...............

~shAily (vacation time) 2008